My brain does not function properly. I’ve written before about the difficulty in retrieving words and processing information, all symptoms of Myalgic Encephalomyelitis. Another bi-product of inflammation on the brain, or perhaps it’s the nervous system, is that my mind locks on something and won’t let it go.
Typically, during the day, I can distract myself; it’s the nights that are brutal. Three nights now I have been unable to sleep. Just as I can overstimulate my muscles and cause damage the same is true for my brain.
It’s as if I have these internal electrical storms. An idea fires, sets off an emotional spark, ignites a psychological tempest. It doesn’t matter what the issue is – how big or small – the result is the same: the replay button gets stuck on go.
We’ve been stationary these past three days waiting for the cold front to pass. I’ve used that time to sort through photos, catch up on some writing, paint, and finish a book I’ve been listening to on audio. I haven’t had any physical exercise.
I thought the physical respite would be good, but I see now that physical activity is important, even if limited. I need to give my mind a break, if not through sleep, then through meditation.
As with all things in life, moderation is key. It’s a work in progress.
If you don’t hear from my for a few days – I am giving my brain a rest.
Writer, avid reader, former educator, and proud grandmother, currently experiencing life through the lens of ME/CFS. Words are, and always have been, a lifeline. Some of the best adventures, I'm discovering, take place in the imagination.