“The doctor was adamant that it’s cancer, and I’ve researched it. If it is, it’s not good.”
Weeks of repressed fear gush forward, and I find myself crying, mid restaurant, my husband seated across from me.
“We just don’t know yet.” he responds softly, taking my hand. “We’ll deal it with one step at a time.”
Of course he’s right. Lack of sleep is making me irrational. The site burns with itch, but the skin tears if I touch it, leaving me with razor-like pain. The specialist warned against treating the area till we had more information. I am a raving lunatic.
Back at home, I have a little chat with God:
“Whatever the outcome, whatever your plan, please give me the opportunity to serve in some manner. I want my time here to count.”
We leave it there. I have calmed down. Acceptance settles in next to faith.
***
In the dance of life, acceptance has been a frequent partner, asking me to follow. This week, examine the role that acceptance plays in your life. So looking forward to your responses.
Leave a link to your post in the comments below, and I’ll be checking back regularly.
One Woman's Quest II 
The Road To Serenity – Haibun – https://awisewomansjourney.wordpress.com/2019/06/01/the-road-to-serenity-haibun/
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Insightful!
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Awesome!
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Acceptance can be such a challenge.
http://oneletterup.com/2019/05/31/acceptance
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Heart wrenching write.
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https://odaciuk.wordpress.com/2019/05/30/uncertain-quiet/ I’m in a turmoil now about my car being on its death bed. Didn’t need the extra expense now. Life happens. Acceptance is hard.
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Beautiful!
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Nice one! Thanks Paul.
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Nice photo! I’ll accept it.
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I pray for good tidings and complete recovery as well as strength and hope.
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Thank you Imelda.
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Sleep deprivation is horrendously crazy-making. I find it can distort everything. Razor pain is impossible to ignore. I hope you find out the test results soon. Not even knowing what there is to accept or not accept is another layer to get through. So hard.
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Thank you. Appreciate it so much.
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You’re most welcome.
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Difficult to balance patience with acceptance … sending you vibes of ENDURANCE … first, to get through the waiting-to-know, then to get through interventions to remedy.
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Oh, good one. Thank you for that!
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“Acceptance settles in next to faith!” Amen yes it does V.J.! Love, hugs, and prayers are sent to you in His name! ❤
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Thank you!
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