Anxiety burnsan acidic devouring confidence impaled –mind wanders to childhood dreamsuncovers fear’s origin. (Tuesdays, I borrow from Twitter @Vjknutson. I came across this tanka written in May/21 that seemed to match with the image I recently posted on my other blog. I decided to pair them here.)
We wait at the station, Mother and I,one final stop for her – painless she prays;I busied at bedside – prolonged goodbye –memories and regrets filling our days. “We live too long,” she wearily proclaims“Why must suffering linger till the end?”I plea and bargain, call angelic names,yet the will to survive refuses to bend. The […]
There are mouse bitssplayed across the sunroomstuck to my favourite throw rug and great globs of glue The trap my husband setto catch the recent invasionapparently lured the hunterfor she, stiff legged andface matted, is skulkingelsewhere I stepped on a gluey biteyes not yet openbefore notingthe disarray Hard to concentratewhen a tail detachedfrom a thigh […]
One Woman's Quest II 
Love your art work!
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Thanks!
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I find it difficult to just sit and be. I find my routines help me stay focused and keep my mind off what is going on in the world. Reading blogs is a godsend, IMO.
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Routine is helpful, Eugi. Some days I just feel that something else needs room.
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I think you should try, V.J.
(Would it be cheating to sit in a place from which you could look at birds?) š
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Maybe not…good idea
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I think we don’t do that enough. What a great idea, VJ.
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Thanks Miriam
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You’re welcome, VJ.
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Love this, VJ! I have tried and nothing happened, so these days I often hit pause and relax.
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That’s reassuring. Thanks.
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You are welcome.
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I find it difficult as well to just sit and be. I was telling my husband last night that I’m afraid I don’t have enough life ahead of me to write everything I want to write.
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I feel like that some days too, Liz. There is a certain urgency that comes with age, apparently.
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I didn’t think I was the only one. š
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I love this VJ! You just described a day in my life…. I don’t seem to be able to sit quietly and just be….
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You too! Thanks Terri. Hope you are well.
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Thank you VJ. I’m doing well. I’ve been staying busy trying to get the new blog up and running…. If you’d like to drop by, I’m at Olive Tree Saints. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Hugs!
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Your blog looks great. Do I subscribe to follow you?
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Thanks so much! You can either subscribe to my mailing list or, if you’d rather follow through WP so I show up in your reader, you can just do a search in the WP Reader, and it should come up. And of course, you can do both if you want to. Hope you have a wonderful weekend!
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Done!
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Thank you so much! I appreciate you!
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My pleasure. I’ve missed you.
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I’ve missed you too!
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Nothing bad will happen.
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Promise?
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Promise!
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FOMO?
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Maybe…more like I’m too old to deal with any more sh*t…lol.
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VJ, here is to “pausing and being.” Keith
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Thanks Keith
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…..like you, I take enormous comfort in life’s little routines, my inner healing drawing on all their normalcy and sameness, so that each day is shaped not by past violences but rather by the flow of prepping meals, dog walking, gardening, painting watercolours, all in the name of convincing myself that there’s peace in the present, if only I’ll just thrill over its stillness and absence of what was before so very disturbing. So, yes, give me another carrot to peel, or an email to reply to….or a lovely VJ posting! Lance
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Thanks for the encouragement Lance. You are right – the simple, ongoing tasks do maintain calm.
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So well said, Lance!
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Yes – let’s all try it and see!
At least until that kettle whistles
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Lol. I’ve created two lists and answered three emails waiting for that kettle to boil.
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Hahah – I guess there are times we just need to “get things done” as well
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