Glimmers of Hope

“I’ve had this recurring dream in which we are on vacation and he leaves me – just walks away,” I tell my therapist.  “I wake up in a panic, feeling abandoned.” “Oh dear,” she says.  “I wonder if these dreams would change if he started looking after himself?” “Yes!” I exclaim, relieved.  These are not […]

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Tribulations

Preoccupation with my own woes blinded me to my husband’s suffering, which culminated in a heart attack on Saturday night.  We are shell-shocked. “That’s what happens to caregivers,” a callous nurse commented.  Am I supposed to feel guilty? Unable to either drive myself, or push my own wheelchair, I am reliant on the goodwill of […]

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Post Ozonotherapy Day 3

Having researched all the possible side effects and coming up empty handed – in fact there were few negatives for any part of the treatment – I began to suspect the detox.  Another sleepless night and no improvement makes me think it has to be something, so I took a break today and stayed away […]

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Functional Medicine Underway

As mentioned in an early post, I have recently consulted with a new doctor, whose expertise involves both traditional and functional medicine.  After years of trudging off to one specialist after another only to be told in the end that there is primarily nothing that can be done for me other than bed rest and […]

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The Reclusive Writer

Should you choose to visit, you’ll be received with old-fashioned charm – ours is a simple cottage of a home, with well-worn furnishings, warmly muted walls, and a kettle always brewing.  Our clutter is a further statement of our relaxed lifestyle, welcoming you to kick back and relax.  If the weather is favourable, we’ll sit […]

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Brotherly Reunion

My mother birthed six children through the course of two marriages; her first husband, father of the original four, married a woman who also had four children, so we are a family of full, half, step and out-of-step children.  Fifteen years separate the oldest and youngest, and as the second youngest, I have never really […]

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Autism, I’m Aware

Just finished listening to Life, Animated: A Story of Sidekicks, Heroes, and Autism by Ron Suskind.   Suskind, a Pulitzer prize-winning author, writes a very intriguing and enlightening memoir about parenting a child with Autism.  His son, Owen, once unable to speak, finds his voice and self through the magic of Disney.  The story of Owen […]

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Sorry, I Swear

Used the ‘f’ word last night – added and ‘ing’ for extra emphasis – flung it with a full throttle hostility.  It startled both my husband and myself, and we have been tiptoeing around each other ever since. It is not like me to lose my temper, or at least not to express myself with […]

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Silence Is Not The Answer

Another celebrity has been acquitted of sexual assault charges because the female complainants did not hold up in court as credible witnesses.  I was neither a witness to the alleged occurrences, nor present for the court proceedings, and therefore, cannot comment on whether or not justice was indeed served.  On a personal level, however; I […]

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My Father Liz

I have been watching TransParent and I Am Cait with the sort of fascination of someone who has lived the experience – not from the transgendered male’s perspective, but as a daughter.  Unfortunately, my father died before Caitlyn Jenner won her award, or education about gender orientation and sexual orientation were readily available.  Tragically, when […]

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