Walls and Boundaries

January 24, 2024.Reading time 1 minute.

I wasn’t taught about boundaries as a child, in fact, I was encouraged not to have any. No one said so, specifically, but in the drive to please, I came to this interpretation. Walls, however, grew organically. I remember many a time, curled up on my childhood bed, raging and in tears, repeating over and over: ”I need nothing; […]

What Lies Ahead

January 17, 2024.Reading time less than 1 minute.

What lies ahead,when pain has clouded the past,and fear is choking the present? Is it possible to glimpse the futurewithout projection, without prejudice;or do we need we need to clear the heartbefore we can be guided by hope?

Currently Learning…

December 27, 2023.Reading time 1 minute.

Reflection, not resolution, is my year end practice. What did the past year bring? What did I learn? What, if anything, was I missing? After so many years of isolation, due to illness, then COVID, we have definitely been thrown back into social interaction. I had come to love solitude. I had surrendered fully and accepted that this is where […]

Happiness

December 13, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

No Answers

December 6, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

I go the river searching for answers, but she replieswith an eerie reflection that only leaves me chilled. Sometimes, in life, there are no answers.

Shadows and Reflection

November 29, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

In the midst of a Covid fever, I had flashbacks to moments I’d long forgotten. Weakened and vulnerable, I cursed their appearance. What did it mean? Why was this happening now? As much as we think we’ve overcome, our past, I realized, there is always more. Especially for those of with PTSD. I haven’t worked […]

Spark

November 22, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

It took me many years to reconnect with my creative spark, but I’m so glad I did. There is so much hope, release, and beauty in the act of creating. How do you bloom yourself?

Statement

November 8, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

At this late stage of life, I desire to assert my gifts to their fullest capacity –not just to blossom, but also to make a lasting statement –all life is precious, beautiful, and worthy of acknowledgment.

Imagine that…

November 1, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

Worthy Quest

October 25, 2023.Reading time less than 1 minute.

More from notes to myself. So much of my youth was lost in trying to measure up to impossible standards.Mother wanted me to be as beautiful as my sisters, placed little value on intelligence or education. My father stayed out of the equation, his expectations a continual riddle, and consequently; I felt I was never […]

Limbo

With each stanzaI strive for an upswing –idle thoughts leadingto a crescendo… But exhaustion plaguesmy try, and fog coloursperspicacity, so my wordsland low, goal in limbo (Image my own)

Frigid (haiku)

An Escape Plan

An incorrigible hagengages my loneliness –like an assassin sniffing outany scent of vulnerability I am lowering standardsthis history of imprisonmentenabling inappropriate openings I cry for new perspectiveponder after boundariesintending to defend Like an unwanted bullseyeI am pursued on repeatmalice considering mea problem to be solved Who is this old womanwhose thoughts are daggerswho calls upon […]