Confessions of Losses and Gains

Illness comes at a cost, yet even as the losses add up, there are gains. With the onset of summer, I recall leisurely hours spent golfing with my husband, or friends – a pastime we so loved.  My clubs now take up residence elsewhere, these muscles unfit for the exertion required. My tennis racquet sits […]

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Brief Connections

The morning drizzle gave way to sunshine by noon and even though I’ve been tired today, I decide to take advantage of the clearing before retiring for the evening.  I grab my camera and go in search of worthy images, but my legs are useless today,  so I decide to sit instead, on a picnic […]

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Unsettled

The buzzer on the dryer startles me and I jump up, eager to change over the wash, only to find I have forgotten to start the washer load.  I feel a tug of annoyance at myself.  I am not functioning well today.  Have been awake since well before 4:00 a.m. and am wired with non-sleep. […]

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Still Dreaming

Jen at Tripping Through Treacle has inspired me to rewrite my bucket list.  Instead of focusing on loss, I can rethink my aspirations.  I love it!  This is a perfect activity for Myalgic Encephalomyelitis awareness month. Actually, I feel like I’ve just had a bucket list year.   Thanks to my husband’s determination and constant willingness […]

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Healing Steps

Fear is insidious; it creeps into the psyche and buries itself deep without any conscious effort.  It manifests in anxiety, stalls progress, and threatens to define its host. Today, I did something I haven’t done in well over four years; I went for a walk in the woods, unattended.  I took my camera and my […]

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The Path to Wellness

“You seem to be doing better; are you going back to work?” Returning to work after time off due to flu, is expected.  There might be a day or so of feeling weak, but it’s soon forgotten as the body springs back into action. Recovery from a debilitating illness, however, takes time.  There are, according […]

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Pep Talk

I’ve faced worse, I told myself when the diagnosis came; I’ll get through this too. And I believe it.   Whatever it takes, I am committed. That doesn’t mean that the struggle is lessened in any way.  The struggle is very real. It begins with knowing self.  I’ve never been one to accept anything at face value. […]

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