CFFC: Dilapitated

What is it about run down buildings that stirs the imagination? This crumbling facade inspired the poem Abandoned: No voices linger, not even the sound of shattered glass echoes, only bones shedding flesh, an unholy darkness within, a mystery shrouded in silence. This is the schoolhouse where my mother-in-law had her first job as a teacher, […]

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Unsettled

The buzzer on the dryer startles me and I jump up, eager to change over the wash, only to find I have forgotten to start the washer load.  I feel a tug of annoyance at myself.  I am not functioning well today.  Have been awake since well before 4:00 a.m. and am wired with non-sleep. […]

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Still Dreaming

Jen at Tripping Through Treacle has inspired me to rewrite my bucket list.  Instead of focusing on loss, I can rethink my aspirations.  I love it!  This is a perfect activity for Myalgic Encephalomyelitis awareness month. Actually, I feel like I’ve just had a bucket list year.   Thanks to my husband’s determination and constant willingness […]

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Stretching: It’s Good for the Soul

Illness is not solely suffering; it is also much like the Hangman of Tarot – a forced change of perspective.  There is a certain smugness that accompanies health:  an attitude, reckless really, that says “I’ve got it all together.  Look at me.” Those of us, having fallen from health, recognize the fallacy.  Life is uncertainty. […]

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Stalking is a Crime

I’ve been stalked several times in my life: by an acquaintance of a former husband, by a fellow student at university, by a man I’d met at the Y, and by a former partner.  In the first two instances, I was naive, and only when the situation escalated did I become concerned.  I confronted my […]

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Televised Sports and Tantrums

What is unresolved in childhood resurfaces in adult relationships; it rears its head with all the finesse and grace of a child throwing a tantrum. I am guilty of such behaviour. Movie nights with Mom happened once a week.  Dad would be at work, and Mom would make a big pot of buttered popcorn and […]

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The Eyes Say It All

I put down the cellphone and glanced to see my husband seething across the table. “I can’t believe you answered that during dinner!” “I thought it was important,” I pleaded for forgiveness.  It hadn’t been important, a social call from my sister.  “Sorry.”  We were dining out; I don’t know what overcame me.  I’m usually […]

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Systemic Describes ME/CFS

Systemic best describes the characteristic of ME/CFS:  the exhaustion, like a lead weight, hits muscles, organs, and brain creating an overall resistance to movement.  Physical energy is engaged in a battle against spirit. Two weeks ago, I attended wedding preparations and celebrations, babysat my five-year-old granddaughter, and felt like I was finally progressing beyond this […]

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Pumped Up

The pressure to match unrealistic physical standards is damaging for all genders, as so effectively illustrated in today’s reblog.

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Distraught? Pause

Yesterday, I was ready to give up – on everything.  I was convinced that my husband’s distraction meant he didn’t love me and that our marriage was coming to an end.  I  panicked to think that we are planning to leave home and I will be cut off from family.  I convinced myself that I […]

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