No One Will Ever Love You

A secret:  I had to teach myself how to receive love. Born fifth of my mother’s six children, I was unexpected – an ill-advised accident, given the difficulties my mother had in previous child births.  Conceived during a tumultuous time – after the father of her first children abandoned her, beaten and penniless – I […]

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Table Talk – A Dream Guide

I dream that Ric has removed our dining table.  There has been no discussion, no explanation, just an empty space to mark his actions. Even in my dreams, I am asking questions:  Is he having it repaired, or replacing it?  Surely, not replacing, I think, as the table was his mother’s.  I conclude that all […]

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Rising Fire

Had my second ozone/UVH/Glutathione treatment yesterday.  This time there was no surge of physical energy, in fact, I felt quite tired afterwards, although my heart tended to race most of the day, interrupting any attempts at rest. Of course, it could be the onrush of rage I feel at the fall out with my daughters, […]

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Emotional Backlash (Or Happy F*@#king Mother’s Day)

This post is hard to write, however; I have no where else to vent, and need desperately to process what has happened. Yesterday was Mother’s Day, and inadvertently my two daughters and I had booked a mani-pedi for that date, the original intention being one last pampering for my middle daughter before she goes into […]

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