An incorrigible hagengages my loneliness –like an assassin sniffing outany scent of vulnerability I am lowering standardsthis history of imprisonmentenabling inappropriate openings I cry for new perspectiveponder after boundariesintending to defend Like an unwanted bullseyeI am pursued on repeatmalice considering mea problem to be solved Who is this old womanwhose thoughts are daggerswho calls upon […]
I know that abyss –swallowed up as I waspunch-drunk on darkness Bled as I emerged,each reach a scrape –there was release too Revived now, I honourthat passage, recognizethe making of a woman. (Making of a Woman first appeared here, December 2021. Image: self portrait in ink)
One Woman's Quest II 
It took me a long time to delete my father’s email address after his passing. It felt like deleting it would make his leaving final. Mourning our lost loved ones is a very tough business. Big hug, VJ.
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Thanks Susan. Mom’s photo keeps popping up in my photo memories – a nice reminder
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I remember losing my mom like it was yesterday. Hugs! 💕
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Thanks Eugi.
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Most welcome, VJ.
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Losing those we love is so hard…. I still have my brother’s last voicemail to me from three years ago. Sending hugs your way.
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Thanks
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I admit to having people on rapid dial who have been absent for years. It’s like if I took them off, I’d be cutting the last contact with them.
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So do I, Lou. I feel the same way.
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I know what you mean. I’ve saved her last phone message to me for the same reason.
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I’ve done that too, but I stopped. It wasn’t helping with the process of acceptance. I kept wanting to call.
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It’s sad to feel that vacuum
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It really is Sadje – like having lost a limb.
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I can imagine your grief
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I remember this exact feeling for quite some time after my mother passed. Sending hugs.
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Thanks Heather.
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