Who instigated the abandonment? It’s an ugly question – manifests pretensions – both sides righteous, blinded… when the rage subsides faith will intervene, and acceptance – a milestone, will springboard recovery, victims voices gaining clarity, intent amended, launching into love once again.
The initial spoonful – salted caramel cool – consoles bitten tongue, slides down burning throat: appeasement for churning gut. Each spoonful savoured sweetness countering bile, dark chocolate shavings as bittersweet as the emotion being pushed down, buried Bruised by conflict, words ineffectual, ice cream an unworthy compensation, cravings turn to salty reprieve.
I am contributing! Are these lessons not abundance – success? Authorities are dissatisfied; want me back in the game, insist disability has an end – analyze me to depletion their plans shutting me down, unforgiving – Encouragement is called for, and hopeful help, something to prod progress This bureaucratic tapping turns on me, creativity breaks […]
im sure the reason we are given gifts is so that we can serve each other even when there is no answer to that question. i for one enjoyed the post. to give you a hint as to how you can continue to serve (apart from your wonderful blog) i will tell you a quick story– ive had the hardest year of my life so far. the three things people have done that helped the most:
ive had the occasional hand with an errand i can technically do myself, but the hand was very welcome; ive had patient and mostly not-very-judgmental friends to talk to; that has helped immensely; and warm hugs. a lot of people do give crappy hugs, like theyre afraid it will spread disease or be interpreted as some kind of mating ritual (this is almost never valid.) fortunately outside the usa, this lame hug endemic is not very widespread. if you spend enough time searching, you can find good quality hugs even in the states. they are no small help– properly implemented they are still one of the best tools in the world in the fight against despair. so hug early; hug often– your nation is depending on you.
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So sorry you have had a hard year, I hope you are finding some light at the end of it all. Do virtual hugs count?
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of course! though if you find yourself in my (exact) part of the usa for some reason, you might have to give me a real one 🙂 i will certainly understand if you avoid it– its not as crazy as they make it out to be, but it sort of is.
(especially the first day of shopping after thanksgiving. definitely fly over us then, i would!)
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