We Are Not Alone

“Mom, I keep seeing 11:11 or 1:11, and sometimes other numbers repeated.”

“It’s been happening to me, too.”

“What does it mean?”

“I’m not certain. One is the number of new beginnings, but I’ve been seeing other numbers too. No matter what the meaning, it indicates that someone is looking out for us. We’ll be okay.”

I hung up the phone feeling less than certain. I was thousands of miles away from my family, attending a conference for Therapeutic Touch practitioners. Healers from all over the world had converged and the energy was intense. Personally, I was experiencing important revelations and shifts. I hadn’t considered that my son might also be affected.

My greatest takeaway had been how the pattern of victimhood had played out so prominently in my life, and I recognized that in order to be an empowered woman, I had to drop the victim role. But how?

The revelation would be put to the test the moment I arrived home. A cold and distant husband waited for me at the airport. Within days, I would discover that our marriage was over. In the ensuing weeks, I would find out that he had emptied our bank accounts while I was gone and had no further intention of participating financially in my life.

As my reality spun, I hung on to the concept of myself as an empowered woman. With three children to provide for, I needed to stay strong.

The numbers continued to show up in repetitions. I knew I was not alone.

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The focus this week has been on numerology, or how numbers recur in our lives. It’s been an interesting week.

Thanks to all who participated. If you haven’t already done so, please visit other posts – we are an interesting group (and always open to newcomers, I might add).

parallax
Proscenium
Stuff and what if…
one letter UP
Abandoned Amenities
Sgeoil
Culture Shocks

I’ll also note that the comments this week are well worth visiting. There have been interesting discussions.

Happy Easter all, and I’ll see you tomorrow for a new challenge.

(Image is from personal collection, and is available through Redbubble.)

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11 thoughts on “We Are Not Alone

  1. I hesitate to ask if that’s your true story…what a jolt. I think there are many women still trying to figure the way out of victim mentality…some days I catch myself having slipped backward into it, but it’s no longer my truth. We are all so much stronger than we sometimes think/feel…we are warrior queens!

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      1. Thing about warrior queens is that we acknowledge the pain, but eventually realize everything works out for the best. And yes, I can appreciate how money would have helped… I didn’t even take the 50% I was entitled to in a no-fault divorce, because the fight would have dragged things on and on… As it was, what should have been finalized in 90 days took an extra damn month, because spouse didn’t want to share the legal fee. I had paid my half, the attorney wouldn’t file till he got the rest… It would have been one thing, if M was hoping for reconciliation, but it was pure greed on his part.

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      2. Oh my gosh, 4 years…and you lived to tell! I admire you, that would have killed me for sure.

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