Life feels a bit like this photo right now – buggy.
While Ric is on the mend, I have been undergoing tests for chronic issues. Last week, two biopsies were taken and a growth removed. No answers yet.
“Are you scared?” Ric asks me as we lie awake, minds processing in the stillness of night.
“Not really. I just want answers.”
Answers mean progress. Hope.
What’s bugging me is how weighted down my limbs feel, and the exhaustion, and the constant nausea. Despite it all, I wake every morning with a list of creative projects I want to complete. I love and appreciate so many aspects of my life.
It’s all good.
I’d just like a little bit of balance.
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Limbo a life test
I dream in uncertainties –
pray for even ground.
(Photo my own)
One Woman's Quest II 
I am so glad Ric is on the mend, VJ. I hope things improve for you. Sending hugs. ❤️
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Thanks Eugi
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You’re welcome, VJ.
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I hope things go well. Waiting for answers is hard. Good that you wake thinking what creative projects you have for the day.
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Thanks.
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Glad to hear Ric is on the mend.
It’s the not knowing that is the hardest, at least with answers we can make a plan, good or bad.
I am thankful you still take time for creative projects. It’s always a pleasure reading your poetry and viewing your images.
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Thanks Heather. Not doing as much these days, but still keep creating at the top of my priority list.
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Prayers, hugs, and love have been sent your way my friend! 🙂 ❤
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Thanks Deborah!
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Praying your exhaustion and nausea lift and that you get some answers soon, VJ. I think sometimes the waiting is the hardest part. I am glad that Ric is on the mend, though. I know that must be at least a small relief for you. Sending hugs your way sweet friend.
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Thanks Terri. It’s huge that Ric is finally healing.
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VJ, hats off to your optimism … I’m currently giving myself a LOT of self-talk in that vein (sciatica issues that won’t go away and inhibit my going ways) … in the meantime till the orthopedic doctor clears up diagnosing, I too turn to creative “distractions”… your words here give me a boost of “go for it” energy. Thank you.
Glad Ric is on the mend.
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Sorry to hear you are going through that Jazz – so painful. I’ve been down this road so many times before ME was diagnosed that I know it can take time. Having a plan is promise. Take care.
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I think balance becomes increasingly important as we get older.
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It does. After I wrote this, I realized that this is a physical need too – pretty wobbly these days, lol.
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I wonder if that’s why every time I go to the doctor, I’m asking multiple times about balance and falling.
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It really is a concern as we age. We don’t bounce like we used to.
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Several years ago, when my mother lost her depth perception due to glaucoma, we installed a metal railing for the steps leading to our house. It’s a safety feature I will be needing myself.
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Is depth perception one of the things that goes? I’ve only just been diagnosed. Does this mean you have it too?
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It was in my mother’s case because she lost her sight altogether in one eye. She told me that the type of glaucoma she had was not the hereditary type.
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A timely thought that need for balance. It’s our poetry prompt for August in Circle 4. I wish for answers for you that lead to balance. I admire your resilience💕
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Thanks Sarah. Send my love to the circle. We keep on keeping on, lol.
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