I get that this illness thing may be part of higher learning;
a divinely inspired gift to awaken my soul, but really?
My resume is already humongous – I am over-animated
with life experiences. Okay, okay, so we are co-creators,
make life choices, must be engaged in the process, but what
kind of school is this, and when did I sign up, and are there
any perimeters? Pardon all the ranting – I am homebound
looking for the exit ramp….
If this is a life course, at what point do I earn my degree?
(Full disclosure: it would be one heavy-assed qualifier)
Or, is this a group assignment, testing our team dynamics,
sustainable vibrancy? To what extent must I put in effort
to earn leave? I’ve been putting myself out there – okay,
maybe with some exaggeration, and tongue-in-cheek, will
admit that there have been promotions – the overall colour
of my life a much more palatable hue than in the past – am
not alone on this journey, just want clarity for the grind,
would like to know where to draw the line for personal
hope before I get smacked down again –
hate to be disappointed….