Sometimes my focus is off. Like in the photo above – I thought I was capturing the body of water beyond, but in reality I only managed to get the fronds and a bit of fence.
I’m still sick. I’ve stopped counting the days, but two bouts of antibiotics and many weeks later, I am still struggling to breathe, and spiking daily fevers. “Go back to the hospital!” my mother commands, but really, when you suffer from a chronic (and rare) disease, the hospital is not always a friendly place.
I am staying out of everyone’s way, not wanting to spread whatever is afflicting me, nor the crabbiness that I feel. How am I ever going to get better with two 4-year-olds in the house constantly rotating cold germs?
See what I mean: my focus sucks right now. I am feeling defeated and helpless. My usual: This too shall pass! is MIA.
The thing is, once I let go of disappointment and frustration with myself, I actually like the photo. It’s unexpected and kind of cool, in an artsy way. So what do I have to let go of to accept this current circumstance and surrender to healing?
No answers today, but just know I am editing my attitude.